Let go of you is my only choice.

I know what im thinking...I know what i want for now...I know what should i take it & what should i take off of me now.

YOU are the one which need i take off...And i should take a NEW life on now...

2011 coming~

Should i take on YOU?wait first bah :D

I think i give up on you already :)

Thank GOD!

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♥ .Bendan not in the OLD world already. (: ♥

Hey, imy ):

Baby, 我突然好想好想好想你哦……

( i very miss you, suddenly )

You all know mah?...outside the people celebrating Christmas Eve and im watching Autumn's Concerto (下一站，幸福) | Crying laughing smiling....what kind of wierd things also can think out... LOL!

Yesterday night....counted morningg mah?...erm....3am++....Alittle counted nah hehe ^^ There's a very very very sor geh Bendan (:

So what? Erm....he called me and we have 2hours long chating all stupid things~ DDLY* i will remember that :D

Before he called....i cried.Not because of the MOVIE i watched, is about him. I dont know why leh...Hearing ' You will never be ', my tears keep on drop. Haihxx...what happen to me ya? I keep on thinking of him.

He celebrating Christmas Eve....i miss him till i cry again. Can i said this as 放不下?(reluctunt) And because of him i know what is LOVE. LOVE is fair de. how much you were happy together & there's how much you will sad. From the day i like you,i love you & i miss you...i never regret before doing that. Besides, im just hurting myself because i cant let go of this. I cant come out from that OLD of me ):

Sorry...talk too much of him.

:x

Stop till here...

:) Bye (:

-

♥ .Bendan is trying to GET OUT from THERE. (: ♥

You will Never be.

How did we ever come to this
I never thought you'd be
someone I'd have to miss...
and there I was caught in your game
needing answers that never came
and we took a chance,
you said you were strong
strong enough
but you were wrong...

and now I'm...

Deafened by your silence
blinded by the tears
if you're looking for forgiveness
you won't find that here
cause you lied your way to heartbreak
and now its all too clear
that you will never be....

Look at her
she won't ever compare
you can say you're sorry
but I still don't care
was she worth this mess
was she worth this pain
you can say it's her fault
but you're both to blame


and now I'm ....


Looking back it was all so easy
I hope you know you're my last mistake
Don't come around and say you need me
I won't stay

Now I know that you were so deceiving
was it fun for you to walk away
I hope you liked it
cause she's so damn easy
you won't change


That you will never be......

-

♥ .Bendan was thinking of eu now. ♥

I would if i could.

Hey,here again (: . Tell you both bah...i know how to hap chou already neh....means like....EAT VINEGAR...where to find somemore like me myself de. Will hap chou once again about other guy >_<'' LOL!

So how? Continue? Or like how Angeline said? Giving self a chance to love again o.0 Or maybe i should just stay strong by myself again?

I dont really confirm he suit me or not. Just sometime he gave me feeling that cant believe on him. So how? Should i go for on him....So hard to take this kind of decision nah~ Maybe i just have to give some time to myself again and again.

To be SINGLE not a bad choice alsoo what~ Like Zane (: . Keep follows up till both of us got each other only take chance bah. Think slowly get the better one. But sometime it would ran off of you when you never hold it tight.

Mun Hong said....this >>> it yours means it yours...how it ran off or went off it still will back to you...

Maybe you're right too...Because all of us will have each one and not more than one.

Time is the precious thing that everyone should take attention at. Ling (: you appreciate what you have now yar... Hard to find a guy like Lao Lao Gong already~

Who AGREE? xD

Me! the first one...and the next is Zane! :D

- THE END -

-

♥ .Bendan stay strong is what you have to do. ♥

Christmas coming (=

So you're there ready to have your party with your friends...

And i?

Before this i thought you and i will celebrate together...

When that thing happen.

Hopeless for all....

All throw inside the RUBBISH bin.

And those who had partners...

Apreciatte bah (:

Bendan!

Let's celebrate together :D

Through hearts lol!

24days to get in 100days le....

When January...my song will be coming :D

LOL! wait i sing it....dont ask me why suddenly i sing.

You must know it when you saw this POST [x

Nothing more to say le

x) | (x

-

♥ .Misz_Bendan: Will eu be there for me now? ♥

There's A Thing To Do Now.

Nothing...

All Lost...

I just hope to have you.

And you're gone too.

Now i dont hope to be in together.

Never...

Because i get hurt by you already.

Even others want me.

I still wont say 'okay' with them.

Just wanna tell you that,

No matter what happen.

I'll still be there for you (:

You feel it or not...

I dont know.

I will always love you.

I dont bother you know or dont know.

My hearts till here.

THE END

-

♥ .Misz_Bendan will be there for eu. ♥

Should I?

How do i start ne o.0

YOU sin bah (=

Feel to be your gf.

Feel not to be your gf.

So how now...

3 chasing me now...2 sure OUT jur geh.

Left you that i can hope.

But.....hiahx.

I scare )x

Should i try? :x

I want to.

But sometimes when you talk...just like nerd -.-

I dont like it.

I feel you're not enuff mature

-_________-

Much trouble sounds here.

Suan bah....

YOUR turn (:

you sounds better than i thought.

Let go of you maybe really can makes you feels better.

No need to think of me.

No need to worry of me.

If i got others.

Would you still nervous of it?

I know you me to get a better one...

But you're always the best one for me.

I will still check on you.

Find out what you doing (=

Where are you.

What you did daily ^_^

I miss eu.

:x

3.50 am here now.

Enjoy your life! :D

-

♥ .imma innosense Bendan. ♥

Cant sleep. | Thinking of Eu.

Nights....

4:30 am.

I cant sleep at all.

I was in a quiet areas to online.

I dont know where to say my words out.

Here?

Maybe i could.

I scare that i awake parents up :x

So why cant i sleep?

Sigh*

I miss eu again.

I saw a post from Facebook.

It was absoutely right about what i've been through.

Hey,baby...

Do you ever miss me?

x[

I still drop my tears in the middle of the nights.

I dont really think i can put down on you!

明年……我要怎样面对你呢?

thinking a way to solve this.

:x

Imma USELESS girl.

-

♥ .imma misz eu,baby. ♥ [ 失眠 ]

I Miss Eu Smell.

Baby...baby.

I miss eur smell yesterday.

I think of you...

I slept already.

I miss eu

I miss eur smell

I miss eur lips

I miss how that i've been attached from eu.

Eur smile really bring me backs.

Eu find me chat every night..

Eu like my pictures...

I like the way you chat with me~ (=

Can i have more of that...

:x

Fine bah....i think like this is enuff le gua :D

I wanna to say:

I ♥ eu.

- ♥ .imma misz eu,baby. ♥

Imma Hopeless person.

Give me some time please.

I need to do the better one...

I never been together with you.

So please...dont so good to me.

You dont put so much time on me...

Maybe we wont be together.

I'm sorry lol....

Dont sad because of me okay?

We're still friend...

Just dont act to close with me.

Feel to be single now~

- ♥ .imma fall on eu,baby. ♥

I fall on you.

Hey,

Am i falling on you already?

I felt myself very bad...

Feel that imma Flower Heart pearson.

Haihx...

What can i do? o.0

Dear~

Help me lol~

Should i gave a chance to myself again?

I havent accept him yet.

Cause i'm pulling the time.

Let me think better.

Dont want to make wrong decision

then simply hurt ppl.

Like Nick.

Hey!!!

Nick still love me :x

Feel bad about it...

I dont know why...

Sorry ya~

Hmm....

This sorlou is still better then the Nick.

Because he wont think like dao gei...

Think Think Think Think

Wondering what can i do now.

Hiaxx... )x

First: Imma not PLAYGIRL.

Imma good de girl :D

Perasan lol (x

Just wanna have new feelings.

I want to forget about the old hurts.

Can i do it?

Gambateh! ^^

Sure i can de lah :D

没有东西可以难得到我的.

[=

- ♥ .imma fall on eu,baby. ♥

I dont know why.

又喝红酒了~

不知道~

我就是想要喝……

虽然妈咪的酒…是贵~

Italy 的内~

But....苦到，

我喜欢 (=

blur 但没有醉 :D

好想你 >_<

想你想到掉泪了~

其实我不可怜…

不孤单…

我很快乐的

=) | (=

- ♥ .imma still love baby,eu. ♥

Sick of Love.

你懂我真的很笨吗?

为你哭…

为你掉泪…

我很少为人掉眼泪的.

就不明白.

为什么是你…

你懂我眼睛痛的吗~

x(

你是我谁?

做么要为你哭呢?!

我真的不明白咯...

算了~

你不爱了....

我能怎样?

和你一样吗?

可能把~

也不可能的....

我不爱的话…

我会觉得闷得咯.

哪像你,

天天dota.

你的头脑只有dota罢了啦...

以前是将~

现在也是将~

无言了咯.

>_<

- ♥ .imma still love baby,eu. ♥

Lol!

Fucking day!

Wake up from bed...thn i think of you?

What?!

What am i thinking now?

>_<

Yesterday talk about you again.

Talk about the foot-print of us.

*sigh...

I dreamed you last night.

imy suddenly.

This early morning...

My phone rang.

Msg tone.

Hmm...

I thought it was you.

x( | )x

But....haihx.

Baby,

Do you still miss me.

So you think of me sometime?

I feel that you still miss me.

Always & always the phone msg came.

I thought it was you!

But then.WAS NOT at all.

My phone...became silent.

After we broke...one massage i didnt even get from you.

Hurt. =(

________________________________________

Bendan macam suka seorang >.<

Like & not love.

I cant put down on you...

I still think of you...

__________________________________________________

Why you loved me?

Why you needed me?

Why you hurted me?

& left this sad for me...

Being emo?is not me...

Emo - is not Chan Xue Ying !

(=

- ♥ .imma still love baby,eu. ♥

Sorry That I loved You.

I put aside the guns

You want to go whereever

Where you dont have to look

What I'm saying?

Stop feelin' sorry for yourself

Whatever you want,

we got it,

And if you're laid off

Good~

You deserve it,

fuck what you heard,

fuck the worry makes the world alive!

Thanks. (:

_______________________________________________

For all of the times that i tried for your smile

For making you think that i was worth while

So your love(4x) would be mine.

For sending you flowers & holding your hand

That no was there to take a stand

But then love(3x) made us blind.

And I'm so sorry that i hurt you

Sorry that i fell through

Sorry i was falling in love with you

I'm sorry that it came true but sorry doesnt turn back time

For all that i have done to you

I wish that i could make it right

So sorry that i loved you

Sorry that i needed you

Sorry that i held you tight.

And i'm sorry for...

Making you love me and saying goodbye

For being the one that taught you how to cry

It was love(3x) and it passed us by

For giving you everything that you dreamed

For taking it back when i fled the scene

Sorry love, for wasting your time

And i'm so sorry that i hurt you

Sorry that i fell through

Sorry i was falling love with you

I'm sorry that it came true but sorry doesnt turn back time.

An apology now after all of this time

Wont make any difference tonight

But i'm hoping " i'm sorry " will open your mind

To love(4x) in your life.

____________________________________________

This were just like how you treat me.

This for : Baby. ♥

♥ .imma still love baby,eu. ♥

Yer...

Bendan♥ can sleep at all

x(

Why?

Use phone online till 5.30am

After that only sleep...

Yiii....

So freaking bad mood now.

Sure because not enough sleep de lor.

Why i cant close my eyes?

Nvm bah.

Got panda eyes,

Thn got lur...

I dont scare :D

Hmm...

Bendan♥ forget the day of 23/11 le.

Yorr...our day lol...

100 days...

Now me wait the day we were not together,

For 100days.

Then i can sing...

第几个一百天~

还是还有感觉...

Bendan♥ still waiting baby.

=) | (=

______________________________________

- ♥ .imma still love baby,eu. ♥

Cant sleep the whole night.

I miz eu.

:(

My bed...

有你的味道~

Hehehe ^^''

Till here...

(x

_____________________________________

- ♥ .imma still love baby,eu. ♥

Hey,

♥вєи∂αи♥

Sorry ya.

Delete jur the old blog.

Nevermind...

This is new one.

The new of me again (x

Anyway,

I still have to say sorry to

Sorlou-Nick.

Imma very sorry.

I gave you hope...&..i took it away.

&& you're very nice person.

I hope you can find a better one than me x)

Good luck to you ya :D

Mun...

I miss you. )x

Why cant i stop thinking of you?

Why...

Anyone tell me why?

why?

why?

why?

- ♥ .imma still love baby,eu. ♥